Bubblydelight

Why is it that people presume to know what you are thinking !!!!!!!

There is 1 thing I need to clarify and that is that my thoughts are just a random mess all jumbled up in my head and so I occasionally write them down on here ......... they are not always about certain people, just thoughts and feelings.

I cant take the presumtions any longer so  I need to fade into the background.  It hurts to think that people can be so wrong in there assumptions, and have a need to pass judgement!!

There has to be something said about the smell of a freshly painted room almost as good as hearing the autum leaves crunch under your feet !  

With Christmas looming I decided that it was time to re-decorate! Why is it us women always seem to do these jobs at the wrong time of year or is that the point ........ there never is a right time !!!!!!  Well one week later between work and family life i've nearly completed it  (only one room) and i'm starting to get that feeling of achievement lol  Think i might just carry on with the rest of the house!

I suppose its a result of several things............ sat listening to all my friends problems all day ( for some reason they think I have all the answers!!!) I dont of course like anyone i have my idea of how my own life should be but there the problem lies.

I stopped thinking about me and spent so much time on my friends that I now feel drained emotionaly and mentally, I look tired and feel it to and well as with most women i'm extremely unhappy about my weight. SO, I have decided to hide away from everyone and sort myself out, I suppose in a way i'm going in to the cacoon but the question is will I emerge as the butterfly? Hopefully not a moth !!!!!!

This morning I started the process and cant wait to feel like my old self again ...... the girl who wants to live life to the max all the time.

Sat here in the kitchen
feeling quite alone,
My thoughts just keep on wondering
and I hear a soft little moan.

My hands touch my skin,
and I tremble deep within.
The thought of you keeps me warm
and slowly very slowly your image will form.

Moment by moment and day by day
the hours just seem to pass away.
The desire I feel will not fade
so I smile within, and will not trade.

Well as life seems to be whizzing by and my son informs me as to just how many weeks there are left to christmas !!!!!! ( Far to many for the shops to be already filled with decorations in my view)I feel the need to have a good girly weekend away,great food, fab wine and hugh amounts of girly giggles !!

Well the 7 weeks summer hols is almost over, and as things start to settle back to normal so do all the thoughts that rattle round in my head ! I really do miss those quiet moments on my own when the house is all empty and it's just me ...... my time.

Life at the mo just seems a confused mess really with my head spinning so fast and moi not knowing whether i am coming or going but i think thats just the time of year or the lack of sun!!!

The garden just seems to be over grown and as for my veggie plot well i thought i had planted corgettes but i think i missed a few and they look more like marrows!!

What a Monday night to spend with friends drinking wine...... thankyou girls xxx for all the things u never know u do xxx
( not that u even know this addy lol) but thanks. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

When and how did time slip by
do I even know the reason why
and now I find my life on hold
it's just as if i've turned so cold

WOW I can't believe that it has been so long since I wrote anything !!! Have I really been that busy ??

After such a glorious sunny day yesterday I find myself waking up to rain again lol the great british summer !!!! oh well think i'll spend the day in the kitchen creating new recipies, i'm in need of some distraction and I do need to find a new recipe for corgettes as I seem to have so many growing. oups must remember not to plant so many next year !!

Well thats another bad weekend over and done with although Friday night was fantastic, great company, fab food and just a good night then everything went downhill from then on!!