Bubblydelight

Well I have so much work to do at the moment I just dont know where to start! My head is spinning with all the things I have to remember to do so I just thought I would take a few moments out to clear my head.

I so far have spent the morning being invaded by friends, I love my friends but sometimes they seem to swamp me. Like everyone they have there own problems in life and I seem to be the person they feel the need to confide in. For me this morning was not the right morning, I have my own things going on and not really sure how much of there problems I can take. As I sit here and type this I can already feel myself getting emotional over nothing, everything is just getting a bit to much for me, not enough me time I think, but with the weather getting so much better every day I will be able to get out walking and find that space again.

I was chatting to a very good friend the other day about regret's in life and yes I have a few but at the time couldn't say what they were so I wrote some of them down in a text but never sent it, I did save and perhaps one day I might just send it but at the moment I think I am secretly having far to many wobbles of my own!!!!

Mmmm not really sure what sort of mood i am in tonight, almost had a great day after having friends round for the afternoon for a social saturday ! but without all my friends there it wasn't quite the same, didn't laugh as much as i sometimes do, gosh this really is the rambling of a strange woman lol.    

 I am so different to my H, I love to socialise with friends and family, the children are all at an age where they go off and play very happily leaving the grown ups time to chill and catch up.  I'm sure that we all need more time to chill out, we seem to rush around trying to fit in far to many things in our lives and forget about the little important moments that create the ever lasting memories.

Life seems to have been a little crazy lately     H went away and I chilled out.  The house was perfect, my son had a great time with out being snapped at by him and even he chilled out.  I managed to catch up with some great firends and seemed to laugh my way through 5 days. Actually, think that should read as ,laughed, drank and ate my way lol but good food, good wine and fabulous friends do all make for a fantastic time!!!

So now things have settled back down to the normal hum drum at home .... thank goodness for imagination, the perfect place to escape when things just get too much.  Talking of imagination iIhave been having some really vivid dreams recently and some of them I am sure I really need to turn into reality! but whether I will or not I haven't decided yet but time will tell!! but for now as long as I keep smiling that will have to do.

There's something very magical about snow, it turns us all back into big kids, and after spending the afternoon with friends sledging it make you feel so alive again. Snowball fights, snowmen, sledging all great things and all start with the letter S. this got me thinking about all the things i love that start with this letter..... thought I would list a few in no particular order Sun, sea, sand, sunbeams,sailing,satsuma's,sex,swimming,secrets,saucy!,sunbathing,smiles,sexy underwear, spring,sharing,songs,style,sambuca, but to mention a few lol

Well I finally did it............ I FINISHED ALL THE IRONING. That has to be a first for me lol and I know it was on my New Years Resolutions list but wow I never thought I would do it!.

As times goes by and the tears still fall,
were you ever really with me at all.
I gave you my life, my love and my laughter,
and all I got was saddness ever after.

And so I sit and dream once more,
for a chance to come knocking at my door.
My heart set free from the confine's within,
my mind blown away from this weary din.

So as I keep my passion locked up,
only time will tell if I'm in luck.........

I cant wait till next week when H goes off to Italy for 4 days. The time alone to be me and enjoy all the things I love in life. WOW that will read as such a cruel statement but H tends to either be sleeping, moaning or complaining about some illness or other, I'm more of a live for the moment type of person. I think that we waste so much time in our lives trying to discover who we are and fit normal everday life in, that we forget to carry on having amazing fun.

If or what would you do if you had one day off from everyday life????? (money no object) Would you waste the time or use it to fulfill a desire. The world is your oyster but will you dare to grab it and jump on board for that amazing thrill!!!!!!!

That moment in time, when your whole body aches and you know that you are on the crest of a wave, not quite sure where it will lead you,but feeling the anticipation mount within. That feeling when your whole body tingles and your head starts to spin as you get lost in time.  We all seem to be searching for that perfect moment, is there one? Does it exist?  Or more importantly will we ever find it !

I'm sure I live in a hugh fantasy world, one where everyone is happy and smiling and that all dreams come true..... well especially the hot horny ones !!!!!!

Well as the week goes on life just seems to be going on a downward spiral, H is just being a real wet blanket and god I sooooo hate that ( men should be men and not pathetic wimps ) oups guess I'm taking it all out on my blog! sorry.

Have discovered a few things about myself recently or were they just thing I knew and kept hidden? Mmmmmm must spend some time and work that one out. This downward spiral all started last friday when H was complaining of chest pains, tingles and cold sweats, but would he pop to the docs or casualty NO, how selfish can he be..... would he really leave a little boy of 9 without his father ?? did he really only think of himself, he only had to go 2 mins in the car to casualty for a check, was that really to much trouble ????

Well now I have managed to upset a dear friend of mine cos I am in a right stinkin frame of mind x

As the heat grows from the fire with in,
the passion flows and my head starts to spin.
My body tingles from top to toe
and I find myself going to only a place I know.

I love the feelings that passion evokes,
soft gentle kisses and long flowing strokes.
Time to loose ones self in the mystery of desire
for hour upon hour.

The scene is set
the mood just right
as I sit here and wait in the fire lit.

But will you come, I dont know
would it be to far to go.
Time will tell and so I wait
for you to arrive at my gate.